Uff ! thak gaya hun apne dimaag me chal rahe toofan se . Ek toh baahar ki duniya itni khatarnaak lagne lagi hai aur uss par upar se yeh exams ka tension . Kabhi kabhi toh mann karta hai ki jab mera bhavishya hi andhero se ghira huwa hai toh padh - vadh ke kya ukhaadh lenge . Lekin aise khyaal baar - baar na pareshaan kare isliye padh leta hun . Main chaah ke bhi aisa nahi kar sakta . Apne shakti ke hone ki wajah se main apni padhaai nahi chodh sakta . Kyun nahi chodh sakta hun ? Woh isliye kyuki yeh jo shaktiyaan mujhe daan mili hai , inka koi astitva nahi hai . Aage kisi ne nahi dekha ki kya hoga . Agar khuda na khasta , meri yeh shaktiyaan samaapt ho gayi kabhi toh apna guzaara apni padhaai se hi chalaana hoga . Toh beta , padhte chalo , kaam karte chalo aur zaroorat pade toh marte chalo . Kal hi hai pehla paper . Waise toh itna pakka hai ki score kam se kam 100 honge kyuki bheja itna jyada chal raha hai mogul banne ke baad ki koi soch bhi nahi sakta . Par main aise beymaani karke score nahi karna chahta isiliye mann laga ke raat bhar padh raha hun . Kitaab me kuch shabd lag rahe hai mere subject ke par kuch shabd mere se aankh-micholi khel rahe hai . Kabhi ek shabd apni jagah se uddke doosri jagah chale jaata hai toh kabhi shabdo ki banaavat badal jaati hai . Kitaab ka ek panna mujhe subject ki cheejein dikha raha hai par kitaab ke doosre panne par mujhe soniya ki tasveer dikhayi de rahi hai .
Kehte hai ki ek baar jab kaheen dill lag jaaye toh phir kisi aur kaam me kuch nahi lagta . Saala ! jab dill hi kaamchor ho toh insaan mehnat kaise karega .
Maine jaldi se doosra panna khola aur phir panne ki kaarigari mujhe pareshaan karne lagi . Kabhi soniya ki kaali - ghani zulfein nazar aati hai toh kabhi soniya ka hasta huwa chehra saamne aaker atkheliyaan karta hai .
Hey Bhagwan ! insaan ka dimaag itna banaaya toh zaroor par ispe kaabu karne ka button kyu nahi diya ? Aur dimaag toh dimaag , iss dill ka kya kiya ? Dill aur dimaag jab dono hi cricket khel rahe ho toh insaan umpire banke sirf khel dekh sakta hai , khiladi ki tarah khel nahi sakta . Koi toh rok lo mujhe warna main padhunga kaise !
Soniya se mile poora ek din ho gaya . Aaj chutti thi aur aaj hum mill bhi nahi paaye . Nishita ke sath samay toh guzar gaya din ka par yeh raat akeli jo itne yaadon se ghiri huwi hai , kaise beetegi ? Maine kitaab ko bandh karke table pe phenk diya . Ho chuki meri padhai , kyuki jab yaad sataaye toh mann kaun lubhaaye .
Room me sirf main hun aur aarav jo adhmara pada hai apne bistar pe . Din bhar itni mehnat ki hai aarav ne toh raat me chain ki saans le raha hai . Padhai nahi kiya hai , woh toh priya ko leke ghoomne - ghaamne gaya tha toh thak gaya bechaara . Ab toh seedhe subah uthega toh padhega . Kehte hai na we remember only the last moment studies . Yehi baat ko maante huwe woh har paper me sirf examination hall me ghusne se pehle hi padhta hai . Kehte hai ki har intelligent ladka class ke door tak kitaab padhte huwe jaata hai . Aarav bhi yehi karta hai magar wo ek class ke door se apne class ke door tak hi padhta hai .
Main room me baithe - baithe aur bhi jyada bechain ho gaya . Ab soniya ko dekhne ki dill- i - chah nikal rahi hai jisse main rok nahi sakta . Mann toh kar raha hai ki abhi soniya se milne niklu . Par kaheen aarav jag gaya toh ? Kaheen Kumbhi ne dekh liya toh ? Kaheen raaste me kuch ho gaya toh ? Kaheen soniya ke ghar me koi jaan gaya ki main usse milne aaya hun toh ? Aur sabse jyada kaheen soniya ko buraa laga toh ? Itni kashma-kash hai par dill hai ki maanta nahi . Room me ajeeb si hawa chalne lagi . Na jaane kitna pyaar leke beh rahi hai yeh hawa . Itni sard hai baahar magar mere andar jo garmi hai uska kya ? Raat me sadak poora sunsaan hai . Sirf ped hill rahe hai tej hawa ke kaaran . Dill se ek aawaaz aayi ki soniya se jaake mill . Ab dill bezubaan hota hai magar jab uski aawaaz sunaai deti hai tab insaan bad-dimaag ho jaata hai . Main ab rukta toh mere dill ki izzad pe ban aati . Mera jo pyaar hai woh yaa toh itni raat me soo raha hoga yaa toh mann lagake padhaai kar raha hoga . Aisa bhi toh ho sakta hai ki jaise main yahaan uske baare me soch raha hun , woh bhi waha mere khyaalo me doobi huwi hogi . Ho sakta hai , par yeh pata karne ke liye toh soniya ke ghar jaana padega . Ghadhi me dekha toh abhi sirf 2:30 baj rahe hai . Iss samay insaan toh soo hi jaate hai par mujhe toh neend hi naseeb nahi ho rahi . Maine socha agar woh soo rahi hogi toh sirf usko ek baar dekh ke waapis aa jaaunga chup - chap bina usse pata chale . Hostel se baahar nikalne ki aur woh bhi aadhi raat me , mujhe aadat toh nahi hai . Dekha ki khidhki se jaana jyada asaan hoga . Bhale hi mera room second floor par hai par mere liye yahaan se kudna mushkil nahi hoga . Maine bina koi aawaaz kiye room ki khidhki se challaang laga di . Aarav toh mast - gehri neend me jakdaa huwa hai . Usse toh kisi baat ki khabar nahi iss samay . Niche se kahaan jaana hai ? Hostel ki bas ek deewar hai mere raaste me . Unchi deewar , itni ki ek aam insaan chadhne ki soch bhi nahi sakta . Par na toh main aam hun aur na hi main insaan hun . Main ek hi baar me hostel ki unchi deewar phaand ke baahar nikal gaya aur chal pada soniya ke ghar ki taraf .
Mujhe toh yeh pata hi nahi ki soniya ka ghar kahaan hai . Phir main jaaun kaha ? Lekin apne pyaar ko mehsoos karte - karte main aage badhta chala . Raat andheri hai aur sabhi jeev - jantu sooye huwe hai . Mujhe dekhiye , main shaher ki sadko pe akele chala jaa raha hun . Jahaan - jahaan mujhe soniya ki khushboo milti gayi , wahaan - wahaan main chalta gaya . Par tabhi mere kadam ek ghar ke samne ruk gaye . Mujhe ehsaas ho raha hai ki yeh ghar hai jahaan soniya rehti hogi . Main gate se andar aaya toh dekha ki ghar ki saari battiyaan bandh hai . Matlab sab log soo gaye honge aur soniya bhi . Uske mom-dad soo gaye par soniya kis room me hogi ? Maine baahar se apni nazrein phiraayi toh laga ki woh kinaare aur upar hoga soniya ka kamra . Pipe ke sahaare main uske room ki khidhki pe chadh gaya aur khidhki ke kaanch ke aar - paar dekha toh soniya apne bed pe soo rahi hai . Uski aankhein bandh hai . Shayad kisi ke sapno me khoyi huwi hai , kisi aur kya mere hi sapno me hogi . Khidhki bhale hi bandh hai andar se jisse koi bhi aam insaan andar nahi ghus sakta bina aawaaz kiye . Par mere liye kuch bhi nahi hai yeh . Na toh main aam hun aur na hi main insaan hun . Main kaanch ko paar kar sakta hun aur woh bhi bina kaanch ko tode . Apne makhmali bistar pe soniya leti hai . Haaye ! neend me toh yeh aur bhi jyada pyaari lagti hai . Uski aankhon ko khula dekhta hun toh kho jaata hun . Par jab uski aankhein aaj bandh hai toh aur bhi jyada madhosh kar rahi hai . Aisa lag raha hai jaise koi rajkumari apne shaahi palang par aaraam farmaa rahi ho . Aisi rajkumari ko main kya koi bhi dekhega toh bas dekhta hi reh jayega . Woh aisi meethi muskaan liye soo rahi hai ki mann karta hai ki main uski yehi muskaan banke iske chehre pe khill jaaun . Jitna bhi dekhlo , utna aur dekhne ko jee chahta hai . Main dabi - dabi aahat se dheere - dheere uske kareeb gaya . Uske paas jaaker main uske bistar ke side pe baith gaya . Mujhe soniya pe itna pyaar kabhi nahi aaya jitna abhi aa raha hai . Main apne dill ki dhak - dhak yahaan tak sun sakta hun . Soniya ne achanak meri taraf karvat badli . Uska chehra seedhe meri aankhon ke samne hai . Isse pehle ki soniya ki neend khul jaaye mujhe waapis jaana hoga . Kaheen yeh jaag gayi toh pata nahi kaise react karegi ? Meri neend udaa ke kitne chain se soo rahi hai yeh ! Isko toh main kal subah dekh lunga . Uske chehre pe uske baalon me se ek latt bikhra huwa hai . Maine apne haathon se uss latt ko uske kaano ke peeche kiya .Ek - nazar jee bhar ke dekhne ke baad maine waapis jaane ka socha .
I love you , soniya .
Jaise hi main waapis jaane ke liye mudaa toh soniya ne mera haath pakad ke mujhe rok diya . Woh soo bhale hi rahi thi par usne meri aahat ko mehsoos kar liya aur uthte hi mera haath thaam liya - " Waapis jaa rahe ho ? Mujhse milne aaye ho aur bina baat kiye jaa bhi rahe ho ? " Main jo soch raha tha sahi hi soch raha tha . Jab meri neend udi huwi hai toh soniya shaanti se kaise soo sakti hai .
Mujhe laga ki tum soo rahi ho ?
" Kaise soo sakti hun ? Aaj ek baar bhi tumse mili nahi . Tumhe dekhein bina main chain se kaise soo sakti hun . "
Mujhe bhi shak tha . Tabhi toh check karne aaya hun .
Soniya aur main jab bhi baat karte hai toh samaa alag sa ho jaata hai . Charo - ore sirf ishq ki hawa chalti hai . Soniya bhi neend me thi par ab woh jag gayi - " Toh check kar liya na . Ab go ! "
Usne seedha mujhe kaha ki jao . Mujhe laga ki usko bura lag gaya ki main bina - bataaye itni raat uske ghar ek chor jaise aa gaya . Main kuch kahe bina waapis mudaa taaki khidhki se baahar jaa sakuu . Par soniya ne phir se mera haath thaam liya aur kaha - " Ae ruko ! I was just joking . Mat jaao na , saath raho mere . "
Oh ! mujhe laga ki tum bura maan gayi mere yahaan aane se .
" Oh c'mon ! kya ek pyaasa kabhi paani ko naa keh sakta hai kya ? You are my need and i want you . "
Hey ! main hun yahaan . Tumhare paas hun , hamesha .
Woh uthke bistar pe baith gayi aur main bhi uske bagal me baith gaya taaki hum dono ek - doosre ko samne dekhte huwe baat kare - " Vishnu , promise me ki jaise abhi tum mere kareeb ho waise hi hamesha mere kareeb rahoge . Promise me ki kabhi koi bhi cheej hume ek - doosre se judaa nahi karegi . Promise me ! " Soniya dheere - dheere gambhir aur mere liye chintit hote jaa rahi thi . Toh mujhe laga ki iske chehre pe jo seriousness ke baadal chhaa rahe hai , unhe khol diya jaaye - Kyu aisa bol rahi ho ? Hum itne dur hone ke baawjood mile na , toh ab kaun maai-ka-laal hume judaa kar sakta hai . Tum ratti bhar bhi tension na liya karo . Kyuki jab tum pareshaan hoti ho na toh tumhare face pe se woh glow gaayab ho jata hai . Samjhi . Maine uske gaal pe haath phiraate huwe kaha .
Woh bhi apne chehre pe mere haath ke sparsh ko mehsoos karne lagi - " Bas ! aise hi apna haath mere chehre pe rakhe raho . Main apni poori life tumhare baahon me bitaana chahti hun . Aise hi har raat hum saath rahenge . "
Sirf raat me hi saath rahenge ? Kya khyaal hai madam ?
Pyaar bhari baaton ko maine thoda sa halka kar diya aur mere itna kehte hi soniya khilkhilaake hasne lagi aur mere kandho pe apna sar rakhke boli - " Jo bhi tum socho . I can do so any time . "
Hum dono bilkul kareeb hai , woh mere kandho pe sar rakhke baithi hai aur hum dono behad kareeb bhi hai . Abhi tak hum dabi - dabi aawaaz me baatein kar rahe the taalo hume koi sun na le . Par aage na toh main kuch bola aur na hi soniya kuch boli . Khamoshi sarhade todne lagi . Fiza me mohabbat ka rang bharne laga . Ek ajeeb sa sukoon mill raha hai hume ek - doosre ke kareeb hoker . Khidhki bandh hai par kamre me phir bhi madhdham roshini phail rahi hai . Shayad yeh woh chaand ki roshini hai jo kamre me ujaala kar rahi hai . Raat ka nasha hume aur kareeb karne laga . Main soniya ki aankhon me dekh raha hun aur soniya meri aankhon me khoyi hai . Main khud ko bhoola raha hun uski aankhon me . Hum dekhte hi dekhte kareeb aane lage . Honth hum dono ke sil se gaye . Lag raha hai jaise ki ek choti si khanak bhi humaare hosh udaa sakti hai . Uski kaali chamakti aankhein mujhe uski taraf kheech rahi hai . Main chahu toh bhi soniya ke dur nahi jaa paa raha . Pal do pal ke humsafar jaise lag rahe hai hum dono . Isiliye aaj khud ko ek karne ki chaah jag rahi hai . Hum aur bhi kareeb aane lage . Itne ki na toh woh mujhe sunaai pad rahi hai aur na hi woh mujhe dikhaayi pad rahi hai . Main sirf usko mehsoos kar paa raha hun . Soniya ke honth mere honth ke kareeb hai , itne ki piche hatne ka koi sawaal hi nahi uthta ab . Raat me uski khoobsurati ki shoki ghulne lagi aur hum dono ke honth ek hone lage . Ek makhmali khwaab sa lag raha hai pal . Hum ab ek ho rahe hai . Humaare honth ek - doosre ko chhuu rahe hai , mill gaye hai . Meri toh aankhein hi bandh ho gayi aur mujhe kuch dikh nahi raha kyuki sirf iss pal ko mehsoos karna hai hume . Na main ruka aur na soniya ne mujhe rokna chaha . Dill sambhal jaata toh pyaar naa hota aur pyaar naa hota toh yeh raat yaheen rukti nahi . Pyaar me ek hona isi ko kehte hai shayad . Phir ek thandi hawa ka jhoka aaya aur hum na chahte huwe bhi alag huwe . Meri aankhein khuli aur soniya bhi thoda sa jhijhakke piche ho gayi . Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki main kya bolu . Aisa pal maine pehli baar mehsoos kiya hai toh thodi si na-samjhi toh ho hi jaati hai . Soniya apna pair pasichne lagi . Usne apne haath ko apne god me rakh liya . Woh bhi kuch bolne me jhijhak rahi hai . Uski nazrein niche jhuki huwi hai . Woh mujhse nazrein nahi milaa rahi hai . Aisa lag raha hai jaise humne kuch galat yaa ganda kaam kiya ho . Par hum dono jaante hai ki sirf thode der ke liye kareeb aana galat nahi . Bas ! pehli baar shayad sochne ki shakti kaam nahi karti . Uski nazrein abhi bhi jhuki huwi hai aur honth bandh hai . Woh niche zameen pe apne paav ko dekh rahi hai . Maine apne haath se uske chehre ko apni nazron ke samne kiya aur kaha - I love you .
Kuch aur bolta ki soniya turant apni jagah pe se uthke mere gale lag gayi . Humare dill takraa gaye aur dhadhkane ek ho gayi . Uske itna kareeb hona hi na jaane kaisa nasha sa lagne laga . Na toh kuch paane ki chah aur na toh kuch khone ki fikr . Sirf main , soniya aur humaara pyaar . Woh mere gale lagi hai aur maine majaak me keh diya - Tum raat me bhi lipstick laga ke soti ho kya ?
Meri yeh baat sunke hum dono ka mann halka aur shaant sa ho gaya . Jo uljhan thi woh mit gayi phir . Usne pyaar se mujhpe apna haath chalaaya aur sar niche karke hasne lagi .
Sama itna suhaana hone laga ki hum bhool hi gaye ki samay beet bhi raha hai . Uske kamre ki ghadhi subah bajaa chuki hai . Baahar suraj aur chaand aakaash me ladaai karne lage hai . Baithe - baithe subah bhi ho gayi aur dhyaan aaya ki exams hai aaj .
Oh God ! exams hai aaj . Tune padha ki nahi ? Mujhe nikalna chayiye warna room me aarav paglaa jayega ki main kaha gayab ho gaya .
Usne bhi mera haath chodha aur main turant khihdki ke raaste se baahar bhaag gaya .
Bye ! exam hall me milte hai .
Mere aage badh jaane ke baad soniya bhi chilla ke kehti hai - " I love you , byee ! "
