Untitled Story - The Beginning part 3

Sadak  par  mere alawa koi nahi dikh raha . Sirf kinaare adhmare pade kutte hai  jo abhi neend me hai. Yeh kutte ghar ki rakhwali kya karenge , yeh to insaan se bhi jyada aalsi hai. Mujhe inn jeevo se bada darr lagta hai. Kisi din inn kutto ko goli se uda dunga. Ab nahi par kyuki ab to mere hi udne ki baari aa gayi thi. Chalo kutto ! tum log bach gaye par agle janam me zaroor tumhe maarunga agar insaan bana to. Dheere - dheere suraj apni aankhen khol raha hai. Sadak ke kinaare - kinaare uski muskaan phail rahi hai. Uunche gharo ki wajah se wo beech me nahi aa pa rahi. Hawa me thand hai . Par mujhe ab kya thand aur kya garmi . Kuch hi der me main apne nark-sthaan pe pahuch jaaunga. Waha pe yamraj naav chala raha hoga aur usi naav me baithake wo mujhe swarg le jaayega. Swarg hi le jaayega kyuki mere khayal se maine jyada paap to nahi kiye hai ab tak. Haan , yeh suicide se mere paap ka percentage badh zaroor jaayega. Kadmo ko sambhalte hue main manzil tak pahuch chuka hun. Bandhe ki uchchayi dekhi  , nadi me samadhi leni hai to neeche to utarna hi padega. Aas-paas kuch log dikhne lage . Mujhe darr tha ki kaheen yeh log mujhe bachane ke liye na aa jaaye. Phir se nazron ke saamne do kutte aa gaye. Dono ek-dusre ke saath chorr-police khel rahe the. Iss baar aankhen nahi band karunga kyuki pichle baar band kiya tha to asafal ho gaya tha. Ab suraj poori tarah se apna muuh khol chuka tha. Uski pehli kiran mere niraash aur pareshaan chehre pe padi . Shayad yeh chahti hai ki main ghar wapis chala jaaun. Yeh act mere se na ho isiliye mujhe rokne aayi hai. Par inke liye ek Bad news hai ki main apna faisla le chuka hun. Ab to bhagwan bhi mujhe rok nahi sakta. Bhagwan kya rokenge mujhe , shayad wo bhi chahte hai ki dharti se ek nikamma kam ho jaaye. Unhone mujhe kitne armaano se niche bheja hoga aur main un sab par pani pher ke wapis aa raha hun. Sorry God  ! but next chance me pakka kuch karunga. Maine apne dosto se suna tha ki nadi ke beech me ek mandir hai jo ki ek chamatkari mandir hai. Kaise ? Main batata hun . Jab bhi shahar me baadh aati hai to yeh mandir doobta nahi. Pani ke level ke badhne ke sath yeh mandir bhi upar aa jata hai. Iska matlab yeh mandir paani ke upar tairta hai. Par doobta nahi hai. Kabhi dekha nahi iss mandir ko par aaj dekhna chaha. Socha ki kisi cheej ko kyu chodh dun jab zindagi ka aakhiri samay aa gaya hai.   Nazar ko charo-ore ghumaya aur dur tak pahuchaya par mandir kaheen nahi dikha. Shayad yeh kahaaniyon wala mandir hai jo dikhta nahi sirf sunaayi deta hai. Bhagwan bhi to dikhte nahi sirf sunaayi dete hai. Zameen hari-hari ghaas se bhari hui thi. Inme kitna jeevan hai. Yeh hawa ke saath apna nritya dikhati hai. Inhe jeena kitna pasand hai . Pasand to hoga hi. Akhir inhe kaun si padhai karni hai. Inhe kaun sa kaam karna hai. Inke na to maa-baap hai aur na hi shaher bhar ke rishtedaar hai. Inhe na to bada hoker kuch banne ki fikr hai aur na hi fail hone ka darr. Aap sab mujhe ek haara hua baccha samajh rahe honge. Khair ! ab kisi ki bhi soch se mujhe koi farkh nahi padta. Sirf padhai hoti toh zindagi ko ek aur mauka dene ki soch bhi leta par yahaan toh pyaar ne bhi saath chodh diya hai. Kudrat me do hi toh cheejen hai , ek padhai aur dusri ladki. Jab dono saath na de to tum zindagi chodhne ke alawa aur kya kar sakte ho. Suraj ki roshni aur tej ho gayi. Ab isse pehle aas-paas chahal - pahal honi shuru ho jaaye , usse pahle mujhe samadhi le leni chayiye. Kisi ne dekh liya toh mujhe bachane zaroor aayega. Aur ab main bachna nahi chahta . Train nahi to nadi sahi. Kitna soch raha hun main . Itna pehle socha hota to aaj yeh naubat nahi aati. Marna hai to mar , itna sochna kya. Aankhen samne ka nazara dikhane lagi. Aur samne kya dikhta hai , wahi mandir. Ek chota sa mandir jo nadi ke bich me hai aur nadi ke upar hai. Vishwas nahi ho raha tha par yeh sach me hai . Mandir pani ke upar tair raha hai . Bhagwan ki jholi se nikla ek karishma. Yeh dhekh ke mann aur soch me pad gaya. Dheere- dheere main apna santulan khota jaa raha hun. Kya marna zaroori hai ? Lekin agar marega nahi to kya karega ? Jab sacchai samne aayegi to sabse aankhen kaise mila paayega ? Apne pyaar ko kaise bhoola paayega ? Kaise sabko yeh keh paayega ki tujhse galti ho gayi ? Ab kuch mat soch aur maar dubki. Par agar tair nahi paaya toh. Ohh ! main yeh kya soch raha hun. Tairna nahi aata tabhi to aaya hun yaha.Mere charo taraf logon ki sankhya badh gayi. Kuch to meri hi taraf dekhne lage. Shayad maine yeh dusra mauka bhi gawa diya. Ab yaha khade rehna sahi nahi hoga. Jaldi se ghar nikal le warna logon ko shak ho sakta hai. Main gusse se waha se bhaagne laga. Ab dimaag me kuch nahi chal raha tha. Kuch hi der me main ghar pahucha , chhat ka darwaza khola aur teesri manzil pe khada ho gaya. Ghar hi sabse acchi jagah hoti hai kisi kaam ko anjaam dene ke liye. Mujhe koi nahi dekh raha tha .Na pehle kisi ne dekha aur na aage dekh paayega. Railing pe khada hoker , ek baar aasmaan ko dekh kar  , sab kuch bhool kar , main kud gaya. Teesri manzil se laga di challaang. Ab to bachne ki koi gunzaaish hi nahi. Duniya ko alvida bole bina hi maine duniya ko chodh diya . Shayad mere agle safar me main iss duniya ke kaam aa sakun. 

Untitled : The Beginning - Bed Dream !!!

"And the student of this year is - Vishnu ".Main apni muskurahat se apni khushi zaahir kar raha tha. Itna mehnat kiya aur pure saal ki mehnat ka itna accha fal mila ,Student of the year. Yeh to har us student ka sapna hota hai jo puri lagan se padhai ko apna dost maanta hai. Maine maana aur mujhe yeh award mila. Ab main stage pe jaaker apne principal se award lunga. Mere principal ko pehle se hi bharosa tha ki yeh haq mera hai. Unhone mere track records dekhe the aur usi waqt mujhse kaha tha ki iss award ko mujhse behtar saathi nahi mill sakta hai.Main saatwe aasmaan pe tha. Sabhi mere classmates mere liye taali baja rahe the , kuch khushi se to kuch mann ki kadwaahat ko apni jhoothi muskaan ke peeche chipa kar. Aise log dost kam aur competetor jyada maane jaate hai. Inki muskaan hi inki gaaliyon ko raasta deti hai. Par mujhe ab in sabki kya padi hai? Award to main jeet hi chuka hun. Meri bhi photo khichegi , School ke panno pe mera bhi naam likha jaayega aur wo bhi bold marker se. Sabhi teachers mujhe garv se nihaar rahi thi. Inko lagta hai ki maine yeh award inke padhane ki wajah se jeeta hai. Khair ! galatfehmi sabko hoti hai. Par main bhi inko khush karne ke liye haste hue keh gaya " Mam ! its becoz of ur way of teaching . Thanks a lot ." Yeh bhi khush. Ab chal Vishnu , award intezaar kar raha hai tera. Kaheen principal ke haath se phisal gaya to muuh dekhta reh jaayega sabka. Stage ki seedhiyan bahut lambi lagne lagi. Main jitna upar jaaun , stage utna hi dur jaaye. Yeh kya ho raha hai? Principal mujhe haste hue dekh rahe hai , mera intezaar kar rahe hai. Par main sirf seedhiyon pe chadhta jaa raha hun , un tak pahuch nahi paa raha hun. Yeh aakhir ho kya raha hai ? " No ! let me go . Whats happening ? " Main chilla raha hun , poori zor laga raha hun par main upar nahi jaa pa raha.Achanak sab bacche mere upar hasne lage. Teachers mujhe gusse  se dekhne lage. Yeh in sab logo ka behaviour mere liye aise badal  kyu raha hai ? Principal award ko phenk dete hai aur mere taraf aa rahe hai. Yeh award mera hai isse mat phekiye . Main chilla raha hun par utni bheed me meri cheenk  koi nahi sun raha . " Tum best student nahi ho. U r a failure." Itna kehke wo hasne lage. Main apne aansuoon ko rok nahi paaya . Itni bezzati maine kabhi nahi sahi. Stage ki seedhiyon par khada hoker apna mazaak bana raha tha main. Main chilla-chilla ke rone laga par sab aur zor se hasne lage. Main unke liye kisi circus ke joker se kam nahi . " Please ! dnt do this to me. " Kehte -kehte thak gaya par kisi ne meri ek na suni. Achanak se meri aankh khuli . Sapna tha yeh , par kya yeh sapna ek paheli thi yaa aane wale kal ka sanket. Maine kabhi aisa sapna nahi dekha tha. Khud ko itna Helpless kabhi mahsoos nahi kiya jitna iss sapne me kiya. Main chilla raha hun , ro raha hun aur wo bhi poore school ke samne. Kya aisa sach me hone wala tha? Yeh ho bhi sakta hai , kyuki jis hisaab se maine 10th ki padhai ki hai uss hisaab se to mujhe school se nikaal dena banta hai. Bed pe pade-pade yeh kaise khayal aa rahe hai mujhe ? Bad thinking to suna tha , par Bed thinking pehli baar suna . Ghadhi ko nigaah talaashne lagi. Andhere me kitna baj raha tha , yeh bhi nahi dikh raha tha.Uthke apne kamre ka darwaza khola aur hall ki badi ghadhi ko dekha. Abhi 5 bajne me thoda tym tha. Par yeh tym bilkul sahi tha. Shayad aap log bhool gaye par main nahi bhool sakta . Kyuki yeh meri zindagi ka sawaal hai , Sorry , meri maut ka sawaal hai. Maine socha tha ki 5 baje main subah ki walk ke liye niklunga aur bandhe ke kinaare nadi me kud jaaunga. Swimming classes kabhi ki nahi to dubke mar sakta hun na. Shayad isiliye itni jaddho-jahad ke baawjood koi mujhe swimming nahi seekha paya.  Jogging suit pehana aur aadhe andhere me nikal gaya. Is samay aakash me na suraj poori tarah se nikla tha aur na hi chaand poori tarah se chipa tha. Yeh samay hamesha mujhe pasand raha hai. Main chutti ke dino me morning walk hamesha se karta aaya hun . Par shayad yeh meri aaj  ki aakhiri walk hogi. Ek baar upar dekha. Ghar ka darwaza band kiya aur apni maut ko gale lagane chal diya.